"I don't want a victim, I want a warrior"
Huh? Is someone in here with me?
"I don't want a victim. I want a warrior"
God? Is that you? I am balancing my check book. I am busy right now. I don't understand why you want to talk to me while I am busy attending to my worldly obligations.
"You are not a victim. You are a warrior"
OK! I am writing this down! Right now, you see I am writing it down. You don't want a victim, you want a...warrior. Me? a warrior? Like David? or maybe Samson?
I didn't mean to play the victim card. But I kinda was a victim, wasn't I? A victim of circumstance. But I guess victims don't win? And now you want to show me that I am a warrior. I don't feel very warrior like right now. I just feel like a villager watching other warriors win, but unable to win myself. Oh shoot? Victim talk again. I want to be a warrior, God. I want to believe that what you have is good. I want to know that I can do all that I can do and that you will follow up by doing what I cannot. I want to face that Goliath and throw a tiny stone, while you bulldozer the rest.
I guess I can be a warrior. Maybe....
Sometimes God speaks to you when you least expect it. At least He did for me this morning. All I know is smack dab in the middle of paying bills and balancing my check book He made me stop and write down that he didn't want a victim, but instead a warrior. It was so clear in that moment. For weeks now I have talked like a victim. I have been frustrated like a victim. And I have cried like a victim. But this morning, God took me to a place that made me realize all that victimization was non-sense. You are not a victim in Christ. You are a conqueror in Christ. You are strong in Christ. You can overcome this world IN CHRIST!
A warrior huh? That's what you need me to be, God? Well then I will be the best warrior that you have equipped me to be. But please know I can't do it alone. Please know it will take every ounce of your strength, guidance, and mercy. I don't fully understand warrior behaviors or emotions so know that I may need you to hold my hand along the way. Don't let go, you may have made me to conquer, but I need that attitude first and I haven't found it. Equipment will be needed. I am ready and I won't step forward until you are stepping with me.
Today, I am a warrior.
