This Friday is very exciting. Not only is it 4 weeks before my very special day, but it is also the Friday before Easter, Good Friday. It is the start of a couple of days spent in celebration of the One who gave His life and rose again to save our life! It is a beautiful thing. This weekend is filled with exciting times!
Tonight Zeb and I are having the Bell's over to my apartment to color eggs, eat chicken enchiladas, and spend some much needed friend time. Tomorrow morning I am going to up to the church to help prepare for the Easter services while Zeb will spend his time helping his brothers and Dad re-model his house. Then tomorrow afternoon I plan to spend some quality time at the gym and getting wedding crafts done. Tomorrow evening I will make my way back to the church to serve all of the people that walk through our doors!
Sunday morning will be so special. Yes it will be Easter, but it will also be the time that I get to baptize a very special little girl. My flower girl, Noel, is 9 years old. She has been a part of my life now for 2 years and on Sunday she will be baptized to publicly declare her decision to make Jesus the leader of her life. Last Sunday she ran up to me and with the biggest smile on her face she asked me if I would baptize her. Of course, I told her I would love to! I cannot tell you how thrilled I am to be apart of this moment with her.
Well that pretty much sums up my weekend. I hope your weekend rocks too!
Friday, April 22, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
My Little Box
In fact, right after I graduated high school I went through a phase where I loved rap and R&B and I loved to visit dance clubs and dance by myself. I found absolutely no joy in rubbing my body on others in those clubs, I loved to just get lost in the music and dance like crazy. Anyone that knows me now would know that I am far from the rap-lovin, dance clubbin girl I was then.
I frequently get laughed at or joked with (in loving ways) that I am confusing or always changing my mind. When in reality there are just many different layers to this identity of mine. Most would know that country is my primary music of choice, but what they may not know is I LOVE me some indie. I'm known for the color pink, but greens and browns have a soft spot in my heart. I have an eye for rustic and vintage stuff, but there is room for modern stuff, but at the end of the day it is all just stuff and not really that cool. Romantic comedies and dramas usually catch my eye first, but I love a good action movie from time to time and regardless of how scared I may get I love crime solver shows.
These are all minor though. In the grand scheme of things I will be OK if I choose Indie over Country or bounce between color schemes. I don't tend to focus on those contradictions. It is the more life altering stuff. For instance, most people in my situation, my situation being holding a Bachelors and Masters degree at the age of 24, would prove to have a sense of direction and be driven towards the one thing they know they want. Although that is not my case because if you were to look a little closer you would see that my two degrees have nothing in common and therefore show nothing but confusion and money
There are many things that catch my interest. I would love to open my own business, which could be a pet store, a book store, or a Pilate's studio...that would be fun. I would love to plan events; whether it is weddings or conferences or meetings, just the idea of creating someone else's event and serving them gets me excited. I would love to work in ministry; particularly with volunteers. I would love to work in the non-profit sector; specifically in an organization that serves the needs of women and most likely with the volunteers of that organization. And with all of that confusion comes one area of stability. Service. That is it. If you look at all of that you will see one common theme and that is service. So if you really need me to be put in a perfect little box with some sort of identity, let it be that one.
I was thinking the other day and I got to thinking about what it is I love doing the most in my life right now. Without a second of hesitation it was serving. My volunteer work is the stuff I look forward to the most in my week. I have told very few in my life this, but if there were careers in waitressing, I would sign up. My short time as a waitress was one of my favorite positions ever and the long time that I worked at Sonic, my favorite position was carhopping.
So my ounce of permanence is serving. Where does that put me and what does that look like long term? I have no idea. I am in a phase of searching that out. It may look messy from the outside, but on the inside I feel a stirring. I know I am in the right direction.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Faith in Action
Last night I laid down for bed and opened up my bible to Hebrews. This is the book of the Bible I have been working through lately. I got to Hebrews 11 which is all about Faith. Now, I had never read all the way through Hebrews so this was my first time reading this passage. About half way through I had to go back and re-read the first part. I did this not because I was not understanding what was being talked about, which is usually the case, I did it because I was so excited about what was going on. Hebrews 11 is basically an overview of all the people in the Bible who have acted simply out of Faith. Since we are learning about being Weird at church because normal isn't working, I felt like God had led me to my own personal study on this topic.
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see-Hebrews 11:1
That is the opening line of Hebrews 11. The rest simply states all the ancients who have done just that. When Noah was asked to build the ark, he couldn't have been certain that God would save his family, but he had faith. When Abraham was asked to pick up and take his life to a new city, he wasn't sure what would happen but he acted in faith. Moses' family had no idea what would come of Moses when they hid him for 3 months, but they acted in faith. Then it says in Hebrews 11:32-34
"and what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jepthah, David, Samuel, and the prophets, who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, quenched the fury of flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies"
When I read that I understood it as, "I have just given you 17 clear examples of people who lived by faith alone, how many more do you need to believe? How many times do I have to prove to you that I am the living God that can conquer all because I created it all?" I went back to Hebrews 11:3; "by faith we understand the Universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what is visible."
And that's enough. That is all I needed to know I can make it through the day. That is what I needed to know that I can get through my struggles, but I can't do it alone. By faith I will walk through my day knowing that my strength is not enough to handle the burdens of this world, but with God, the commander of the Universe, I am able and I will conquer.
Here is the kicker though. It states in Hebrews 11:13-15; "All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had the opportunity to return." That is profound. This is how I translate that. These people are walking through this world, thinking only of their Heavenly future which is why they are doing the "crazy" things that so many others do not understand. They are walking in faith because they know that if even for a second they begin to think that they were made for this world and able to do it on their own, they will have ample opportunity to return. They were not made for this world, but if their sights are set on it rather than on the heavenly city they WERE created for, it can be so easy to return.
I praise God for living examples of what it means to walk in faith and act in faith in the Bible. I am glad there were others that understand that trading the immediate for the ultimate is more than enough reason to believe, have faith and be WEIRD.
"Instead they were longing for a better country-a heavenly one. Therefore, God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them"-Hebrews 11:16
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see-Hebrews 11:1
That is the opening line of Hebrews 11. The rest simply states all the ancients who have done just that. When Noah was asked to build the ark, he couldn't have been certain that God would save his family, but he had faith. When Abraham was asked to pick up and take his life to a new city, he wasn't sure what would happen but he acted in faith. Moses' family had no idea what would come of Moses when they hid him for 3 months, but they acted in faith. Then it says in Hebrews 11:32-34
"and what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jepthah, David, Samuel, and the prophets, who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, quenched the fury of flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies"
When I read that I understood it as, "I have just given you 17 clear examples of people who lived by faith alone, how many more do you need to believe? How many times do I have to prove to you that I am the living God that can conquer all because I created it all?" I went back to Hebrews 11:3; "by faith we understand the Universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what is visible."
And that's enough. That is all I needed to know I can make it through the day. That is what I needed to know that I can get through my struggles, but I can't do it alone. By faith I will walk through my day knowing that my strength is not enough to handle the burdens of this world, but with God, the commander of the Universe, I am able and I will conquer.
Here is the kicker though. It states in Hebrews 11:13-15; "All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had the opportunity to return." That is profound. This is how I translate that. These people are walking through this world, thinking only of their Heavenly future which is why they are doing the "crazy" things that so many others do not understand. They are walking in faith because they know that if even for a second they begin to think that they were made for this world and able to do it on their own, they will have ample opportunity to return. They were not made for this world, but if their sights are set on it rather than on the heavenly city they WERE created for, it can be so easy to return.
I praise God for living examples of what it means to walk in faith and act in faith in the Bible. I am glad there were others that understand that trading the immediate for the ultimate is more than enough reason to believe, have faith and be WEIRD.
"Instead they were longing for a better country-a heavenly one. Therefore, God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them"-Hebrews 11:16
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Rare Breed
Lately my blogging has been hit or miss. It is not because I haven't had inspiration in my life to blog about, I just haven't taken advantage of the inspiration present. This morning as I was going through my normal blogs that I visit regularly, I came across hers. This woman, Kelle Hampton, I have talked about her before. She never leaves me without a smile. Her blog includes writing and photography. Every time I visit her blog I just get this feeling inside. She brings happiness to her readers with loads of transparency. She causes the goodness in me to stir.
You see, as with anyone, there are people in my life who bring me up when I make contact with them and there are people in my life who bring me down. There are the positive patty's and the negative Nancie's. More recently I have found that I LOVE and CHERISH my time with the positive patty's. These patty's, they bring light to my life and make me smile. They bring happiness and inspiration. They give me something to strive for. They do not bring harsh words or gossip. They don't find pleasure in bringing down others or cursing. They delight in the beauties of life.
Since I am such an easily influenced person, it is important to me to spend time with the people that bring me up. I have really come to believe that beauty is in everything and every situation, sometimes you just have to look harder. The only reason I have come to this conclusion though is because people have been placed in my life to teach me that. Today, I feel so lucky to have a refreshing look on life. I feel so lucky to be filled with a spirit that delights in life and joy. Thank you to those of you that encourage rather than discourage and lift up rather than pull down. You are a rare breed in this day and age, but I appreciate you more than you know.
You see, as with anyone, there are people in my life who bring me up when I make contact with them and there are people in my life who bring me down. There are the positive patty's and the negative Nancie's. More recently I have found that I LOVE and CHERISH my time with the positive patty's. These patty's, they bring light to my life and make me smile. They bring happiness and inspiration. They give me something to strive for. They do not bring harsh words or gossip. They don't find pleasure in bringing down others or cursing. They delight in the beauties of life.
Since I am such an easily influenced person, it is important to me to spend time with the people that bring me up. I have really come to believe that beauty is in everything and every situation, sometimes you just have to look harder. The only reason I have come to this conclusion though is because people have been placed in my life to teach me that. Today, I feel so lucky to have a refreshing look on life. I feel so lucky to be filled with a spirit that delights in life and joy. Thank you to those of you that encourage rather than discourage and lift up rather than pull down. You are a rare breed in this day and age, but I appreciate you more than you know.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I Scream for Ice Cream!
When I was in college at NAU, there was a short time where I got addicted to these little ice cream bars.
They are the perfect combination of crisp chocolate and hard vanilla ice cream. Not soft and melted ice cream, that is bad, we need the hard ice cream. Man, they were good. Then the other night happened. I was at my apartment and a commercial came on for the new dark chocolate ice cream bar by dove.
Ok so I have a small problem with Dark Chocolate, similar to my problem with wine and cheese and currently oranges. It is perfect bliss in your mouth. Therefore, when I saw this commercial it immediately took me back to my days at NAU with the Haagen Dazs bars and my joy for those, but then...imagine it with dark chocolate...even better. I tried to ignore this thought in hopes that the craving would rid itself from my mind in remembrance that I have a dress to fit into in 38 days that fits perfect right now. But one bar won't hurt right? I mean I could eat as little amount of calories all day, workout and one bar would be no harm. Plus if I had one bar it would completely demolish the craving in mind and then I could go on with life knowing that my craving had been satisfied. Just one.
So that is exactly what happened last night. I was dead set on getting one bar. I ate minimally all day, burned 450 calories in my workout (which technically would cover two bars if I really wanted) and then at 9:30 last night I talked Zeb into going to Wal-mart with me to do some "grocery shopping". Truth be told I did need some other groceries, but there was one motive in mind to the late night trip. And yes 9:30 is late for me as my eye lids usually start to close between 10 and 10:30. We slowly wandered into Wal-mart hitting the normal aisles and I got more excited as we headed towards the back. Just as we hit the frozen section I sent Zeb off to grab some milk and told him I was just going to look at something down here. There was no turning back at this point. I hit the frozen ice cream bars and my eyes lit up. My only problem was there were no single packages, only boxes of 3. Problem?? I think not. As I stared at my options I told Zeb that I only intended on getting one, but since there were only boxes I was going to need his help in eating the others so I could stay on track. He agreed, like a good man would that is trying to help his dear fiance control her cravings and her waistline in the same hand. So I went with these...
No regrets!
So that is exactly what happened last night. I was dead set on getting one bar. I ate minimally all day, burned 450 calories in my workout (which technically would cover two bars if I really wanted) and then at 9:30 last night I talked Zeb into going to Wal-mart with me to do some "grocery shopping". Truth be told I did need some other groceries, but there was one motive in mind to the late night trip. And yes 9:30 is late for me as my eye lids usually start to close between 10 and 10:30. We slowly wandered into Wal-mart hitting the normal aisles and I got more excited as we headed towards the back. Just as we hit the frozen section I sent Zeb off to grab some milk and told him I was just going to look at something down here. There was no turning back at this point. I hit the frozen ice cream bars and my eyes lit up. My only problem was there were no single packages, only boxes of 3. Problem?? I think not. As I stared at my options I told Zeb that I only intended on getting one, but since there were only boxes I was going to need his help in eating the others so I could stay on track. He agreed, like a good man would that is trying to help his dear fiance control her cravings and her waistline in the same hand. So I went with these...
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